huh? what? huh? fuck you!

Hello, old friends. Nice to see you again. I trust all is well in your lives?

Good. Now that the formalities are done and over with, let's get down to the grit of this thing.
I've been gone, as you've no doubt not noticed, nor cared. But for those who have found themselves sitting back in fond recollection of drunken rants and profanity laced tirades thinking, "where did that motherfucker go?", allow me to shed some light on the matter, now that I have the ability and inclination to properly do so.

About a month and a half ago, I left my life as I knew it. The shiny facade that was my day to day existence simply couldn't hold up against the brutish reality of what was really going on any longer. The perfect little house, the perfect little family, all a big fucking lie that couldn't be upheld any longer. So I left. Packed what little things I truly cared about, took my two boys, and left a trail of dust and dead in my wake.

I don't know why i'm writing this. I never come here anymore, and after I post this, I most likely won't return in quite some time. I was promoted at work, and now am in charge of our highest volume store, which requires me to work like a hooker on holiday. There is a tidal wave of confusion, despair, hope, anxiety, rage, sorrow, and a million other bullshit feelings racing through my mind like a pitbull on crack.

The real score here is, I simply feel better. Despite all that is going wrong, I have the comfort of knowing that it can and will get better, that everything I do is working towards a brighter tomorrow, and not just done so that the candy shell of my life doesn't melt and expose the arsenic laced chocolate inside.

There is a new me being born. An angrier one, but one who uses the anger to control and manipulate life to fit his needs. Life is not a bitch. Rather, life is my bitch. I can climb the highest mountains, and when I reach the top, I will punch God in the dick.

When this new 6 is fully gestated and born into this world, I hope you are all around to witness him. Until then, go fuck yourselves and eat a dick.